and with a broken wing

as i sit here by the phone,
i realize i am all alone.
i think to myself maybe that's why,
i'm scared to spread my wings and fly.
as i sit here broken hearted,
i realize i shouldn't have parted.
with the sweet and innocent part of me,
i guess i thought we would always be.
i felt our love was never ending,
even thought it has been bending.
these feelings come and go,
and after a year i shouldn't have to show,
how much you mean to me,
i've never cheated or given you a reason to not believe me,
this whole being apart,
it's def. taken a toll on my heart,
it hurts to not see the one i love,
alli want is to give you a hug.
and squeeze you and hold you close to me,
next to each other is where we are meant to be.

every part of me

your always on my mind,
there's a part of me that can't leave you behind.
i never knew i could feel so weak,
i cry so hard, i can't even speak.
i'm in way to deep to let you go,
i really love you, i hope you know.
if i could have my way,
i would choose to see you everyday.
i just can't help the way i am feeling,
and i need you, to help with the healing.
mentally, physically, and emotionally,
i'm glad you are by my side willingly.

you complete me in everyway,
i will love you until my dying day,
and even though things don't always go my way,
with you my heart will stay,
until the end of times,
there is no verse, no ryhmes.
that truley express how much i love you.

i always used to wait for someone like you,
now that i have found you, i don't know what to do.
i'm scared i dont' know how to act
but i feel that whatever i do,
you will always have my back.

true love is hard to find.
so once you have it don't let it unwind.
hold it close to your heart,
have your space, but don't fall apart.
it's alright if you have to fight
it's what keeps the fish's bite,
so once you latch, hang on!

these feelings are so new to me.
it makes me wonder if we were meant to be.
i really like you, more then anyone.
can't you see i want you hun?

How could you?

how could you do this to me?
how could you let me go?
you said we were meant to be.
how could you touch that ho?
i put up with so much bullshit from you,
how could you just not love me anymore?
even after everything, i still love you.
so how could you jsut close the door?
how can everything i did for you, mean nothing at all?
was any of this ever real?
why are you just watching me fall?
is this really how you feel?

Hey Hey Just walk Away

it's easier to walk away from everything,
just b.c it's easier, doesn't make it right.
so when times get hard don't run from your problems, fight.
fight for what you believe in, fight until you win.
fight until the bitter end.
you just may find the answers aren't far around the bend.

soo familiar

i have seen you so many times before,
but in ever thought we could be more.
who would have thought we could get so close, in so little time?
when i'm not with you, i loose my mind. <3

til death do us part

til death do us part,
you will always be in my heart.
since the day i saw you,
i knew it was true.
it was something you had, that caught my eye,
whatever it is, i never want to say goodbye.
everytime i see you, i fall in love all over again,
just like the first time, way back when.
you can't make me love you,
no. not anymore then i already do.

hmmmm

these tears i cry are over you.
i'm lost without you, i dont know what to do.
i just wish people would understand me.
why can't they open their eyes and see?
i want you by my side.
i want to hold you tight.
i want to be able to, because i'm stupid and i was mean to you.

A Pair of Shorts!

love is like a pair of shorts
you can wear and tear, and even sew it back up,
over and over again.
but eventually the stiches will fall out,
and you'll grow out of it.

Yeah Yeah

as i think of what to say,
i realize that things dont always go my way.
it makes meupset,
but boy you can bet,
that you'll soon be making me giggle,
my mind will draw a blank, a sqiggle.
then i'm back
where i started at,
as i think of what to say.

Our Army

all the men fighting for us.
showing their bravery by putting on a front.

being gone for so long, away from their loved ones.
risking their lives to save ours.
the serious looks on their faces, as they pull the trigger, scarred, for life, forever.
they train you to have no emotion, no attachment.

"now i lay me down to sleep, i pray for the soilders, and their wives as they weep. please god, bring them all home safe and sound, back their roots, where they are bound."

Always && Forever

i hope we can work things out b/c i love you very much
it'll make me very happy if again our lips can touch
i'll always love you, b/c my heart is what you hold
if only did what you were told
everyone, even me told you what the outcome would be
if you didnt stop hurting me
but you still continued breaking my heart
but as much as i want it to be ALL your fault,
i also helped to tear us apart.

i'm here for you.

though im not exactly sure how i feel
i want you to know that i am here
i'm here for you to call
whenever your world may fall
if ever you need someone to talk to
let me know, b/c i'm here for you
just b/c my feelings have changed,
it doesnt mean i am deranged
its just seeing boys i used to like a lot
it makes me not want to be bought.
but dont you worry, b/c once i have seen what i lost
i will realize the cost.

Worse off

there's always someone out there who has it worse then you,
you want so badly to help them, but there's nothing you can do.
you have to watch them suffer, and live through all the pain,
of knowing their life story, from that there's nothing to gain.
all they want to love, and to be loved in return.
to die and go above, that is all they urn.

...untitled

i'm tired, i'm weak.
i'm lost, i can'tspeak.
i'm cold, i'm hot.
i want something i haven't got.

the girl who...

she was the kind of girl who:
taught 5th grade
was tuff
was huge hearted
walked around with a fake smile
loved boots
loved coffee
starver herself to fit in
screamed everynight
always watched tv
loved to loved not rubbed*
was broken inside
left as a child to servive on her own
saw ghosts
hated reading
loved to shop
talked behind your back
had a phobia of snakes
refused to pick her nose
tried to steal robert's bike

RDM

i remember it, i remember it all. i remember the wedding, the fudge, that night. i remember the smirnoff, the anger, the sadness. i remember the next morning. i remember the day before you left us. you left all of us. we all miss you. it was late august. not long before that tragic night, i saw you, i was lying on my couch and you said to me "what are you sick er something?" it was a day i will never forget. i'll never forget the anger/sadness in your eyes that night. drinking then fighting, not a good mix. no one will ever tell what happend. lies and decite to cover up one another. we are all down here, wondering, and waiting. waiting for justice to be served. until then, until we see you again, know we all love you and you will forever be missed.


R.I.P Ryan David :-*

My doggy

I love my dog, she completes my whole day. She always does goofy crazy things. She gets attention every where she goes. She is a black shitzu. We bought her as a puppy, and have raised her, over the years. She does this thing that we call her "head bang dance." where she puts her head on the floor, turns sideways and scratches at the floor, and spins herself around in a circle. It is soo funny to watch. If you ever saw her you would fall in love with her too. =]

Good Song

You took your coat off and stood in the rain You were always crazy like that I watched from my window Always felt I was outside looking in on you You were always the mysterious one with dark eyes and careless hair You were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care Then you stood in my doorway, with nothing to say Besides some comment on the weather

Well in case you failed to notice, in case you failed to see This is my heart bleeding before you, this is me down on my knees These foolish games are tearing me apart Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart You're breaking my heart You were always brilliant in morning Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee

You philosophies on art, Baroque moved you You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones As I clumsily strummed my guitar You'd teach me of honest things Things that were daring, things that were clean Things that knew what an honest dollar did mean So I hid my soiled hands behind my back Somewhere along the line I must've gone off track with you

Excuse me, think I've mistaken you for somebody else Somebody who gave a damn, somebody more like myself

These foolish games are tearing me apart You're tearing me, tearing me, tearing me apart Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart You're breaking my heart You took off your coat and stood in the rain You were always crazy like that

The song is called Foolish games, by Jewel, I like how it starts and ends with the same line. I like the lines that I have made bold. It is a very powerful line, with god choice of wording I think.

Bestest friends

Every girl, has or needs a best friend. It can be a guy or a girl, either way they are great to have. Tiffany Cameron and I were received best buds for class of 06'. Best friends are people who never forget you, never dont forgive you, and most of all are just a shoulder to cry on. Tiffany and I have been best friends since fourth grade. Just like everyone else, we have had our differences growing up, parting ways, but not matter WHAT, we always have remained best friends in the end. We have a bond that remains, no matter how long, or far apart. From barbies, to shopping, and now boys, we still have each other. Sometime soon I get to be her maid of honor! Can't wait. LOOOve you tifFy.. <3

Mr. Dynamite

Mr. Dynamite is a very odd book. I dont hate it, but I dont love it either. He rambles on way too much to this dead guy. How is this Sean guy going to read it, he's dead. Mr. P or whatever is very selfish. he only cares about getting his money. obviously everyone in debt wants to inheret money to get out. He just needs to work, and make money and slowly pay it off. He shouldn't say things that about his aunts either, unless they were extremely cruel to him. the guy has had wayyy to many affairs on his wife. His wife you would think would be good for him, she is a teacher with good pay, and good benefits. Is he retarded to cheat on her? YES! I guess I will just have to keep reading before I will fully understand it all. :-)

Wedding Crasherss!

Wedding Crashers is so hallarious. The first time i watched it I laughed the whole entire time. If you haven't seen it yet you HAVE to rent it. I added a clip of part of the movie. Owen Wilson and Vince Vaughn, worked so great together. Even though Owen recently tried to kill himself, he still is a great actor. I hope they make a sequal to the movie. Enjoy the little clip! <3

Sorry, the clip didn't work right I dont know how to do it rigt, but here is the url address.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bHP5H1FZ_lg

sHoEs <3

I happen to love shoes, but ecspecially boots. In the winter, UGG boots are my absolute favorite, i have two different pairs of them. One color is black and the other color is a turqouise blue. The black ones are real UGG boots, the blue ones are not. Although UGG boots are sort of expensive they are definetly worth the money. They are the utmost comfortable shoes EVERRR! I didn't get my nickname "boots" for no reason. In the summer im addicted to my cowboy boots. I'm a huge fan of Jessica Simpson, so after her movie The Dukes of Hazzard I started wearing cowboy boots. They look great with like everything, from dresses to jeans. One day for impersonator day in high school I was Jessica Simpson in the form of Daisy Duke. Ever since then i have been wearing my cowboy boots. So the moral of my blog is shoes are great, and every girl should have several pairs! :-)'

GlaZed dOnuTs

My relationship with glazed donuts is wonderful. I love them all, each and every one of them the same. My most favorite ones of all though would have to be the glazed munchkins and Dunkin Donuts. Glazed donuts can be very fattening, however i think i can afford to put on a few extra pounds. :-)

aRt

Most people think a bunch of paint spatters on a piece of canvas is art. Maybe it comes with the money, or maybe it comes with old age, but i don't see it. If paint spatters and an upside down toliet is art, then we all could be famous artists. The Mona Lisa is art, because it is actually of something, someone had to sit there and be still so they could be drawn. In my mind drawing is art. When i was in elementary school art class was drawing or painting, not taking a toliet and flipping it upside down.